悟

没有受过折磨，

我们不会成长，

不会变得成熟，

也不会拥有智慧.

----张小娴----

很有意思的一句话 =）

;D

♥

glance at me


laugh with me


talk to me


be with me,my Man


♥

虎年大吉

for you

dedicated to my BFF..XD

no matter what had happen
you can speak to me
you can shout it out loud
no need to stress up yourself

I not really understand what is the current situation
but
there is no right or wrong in this case
I wont judge you like others
no worries
whatever the decision is
I will fully support..XD

-XOXO-


p/s : best fckin friend,you knw i am writing it for you geh right ?
teeheee..XD I knw this post is a bit LATE,paiseh larh..
& my 文笔不好,got lot to write but I juz duno where to start.
anyway,I l.o.v.e you

Macau Jan2010

she is lynn-- a friend that accompany me in this trip.
that is so much fun that 2 girls travel by ourselves in a foreign place
with no ones we know..

I cannot post all photos up =(
dunno why it keep shows me ERROR..
please check it on my facebook if you want to see the photos.
Anyway,I ♥ macau
I love their buildings,people,foods,culture..=)
Everything is just so lovely..
It is a place that first time I go with my friend
with just money,air ticket n hotel reservations.
there is just research info with us,no guide tour,"explore" d lil place by own.
I will pay another visit when chances is here..XDD


p/s : planning another one in this year,any recommendations?

yuhooo..XD

Peeps,I passed and complete my foundation studies =)
degree course start from 18thJan..
wish me all the best ..
This is a good start of 2010 ..XD

p/s : back from Macau,it is a nice trip..next post will all about Macau XD

2010's 1st monday =)

Macau
I am coming~~~yuhooo
I will depart 5th Jan early morning...
miss you all♥ ♥catch up with you all very soon!!!


p/s : I SO damn freaking ganjiong that my final result.
grrr...hope it release after my trip.bless me =)

03-01-10

happy b'day,hun =)
never thought last year you got first b'day present from me
&
this year you got a bouquet of flower from me in temple=(
Anyway,
wish you have a greatest 21st birthday up there with lotta angles accompany..
*heart you* as always
you will b missed dearly^_^

It must be a HAPPY 2010 =p

In this brand new year,
I waaaaant be a better friend & daughter and also neeeeeeed a better lifestyle.
So,
My new year 2010 resolution sounds like this :

1. being healthier -drink more water and eat more healthy food to keep a good diet & nice body shape=)

-exercise,exercise and EXERCISE!!!!

2.study smart & work hard I want to get better grades in studies.

3.play hard & safe..XD spend holidays,play,party wisely & of coz HAVE FUN!!

4.control my bad temper =/
I am not a pessimist, neither an optimistic person.
My emotions sways very easily from happy to sad.
But I also bounce back very easily.I am very complicated.
So,I need to take control of my EQ properly..
LOL


5.L.O.V.E

I read most of the people's new year resolution,
there always had a l.o.v.e section
So do I ..xD
I think this is all about faith..
ahahaa..
so when the timing & person is correct,there is L.O.V.E.


n
n
what in my mind now I dun think that is resolution..=p
It shud be 2010 shopping list.haaa
So,
That is for now everyone =)

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010
Wishing you guys & ME
all the best throughout the brand new year.
and
achieve whatever ours heart's desire =)

Conclusion of 2009

2009..
I am not doing well in almost everything.
Whatever I did was so not "shun shun li li"
in academic
in friendship
in family
even in personal & L.O.V.E
There are so many obstacles pop out in everything I did,it makes me headache & damn moody..
Besides,
I also lost friends & a cousin sister in a night like forever T_T

So,everything is just so not okay!

but..
there is one thing I treasure & appreciate it very much =)
that is friends and family..*hugssss*

In 2009
I knew lotta new friends in new semester n we had a great time=]
even get free "tuition" when I got problem in my studies..
n
being close & closer with my dearest friends..
they support & offer shoulder to lean when I need them ^_^
thank you all for being good listeners =)
n
of coz my dear family..
They support whatever I did, like cover me in a warm blanket no matter what had happened
*love you*

In conclusion
No matter what had happened
No matter how bad it was
No matter how suffer I am
I am still lucky
I am lucky that I had great friends & family =)

p/s : wish & bless me will get a good final exam result..XD

Dear
my family,my friends,bloggers ,my <a little bit readers> & everyone out there,

MERRY CHRISTMAS =D

Love,
Shee Jan

THE MESSAGE

很久没看过这么过瘾的历史片了，或是谍战大片。赞！！！
虽然有些画面血腥，残忍,不过却很真实。。
因为历史上，当年很多革命前辈经历的苦难可能比这个还残忍得多=[

《风声》
讲述代号为“老鬼”的某位共产党地下工作者，依靠高超的电报破译能力，打入日伪情报组织内部，不断为共产党提供敌方重要情报，为抗日事业做出了重大 贡献。

1941年春末夏初，共产党委派一名代号“老鬼”的特使前往杭州，秘密召集在浙的抗日反伪地下工作者，谋划有关联合抗日反汪的计划。
由于一份加密文 件被破译，这一消息被敌方获悉。当“老鬼”得知这一情况后，立即把情报交给了情报员“老枪”，让他通知组织赶快取消这次会议。

但“老鬼”没想到的是，由于 一名投降者泄密，“老枪”的行动已受到了敌人严密监视。
“老枪”以收垃圾为名偷偷拿到情报，在街上和共产党“老汉”接头并传递情报，结果，“老汉”被 捕，“老鬼”传出来的情报也陷入敌手。
于是，日本特务头子龙川肥原知道了有内鬼的存在，当即将接触过那份加密文件的吴志国、李宁玉、金生火和顾晓梦秘密软 禁在杭州，彻底断绝他们与外界的联络，欲查清四个人中究竟谁是“老鬼”。

面对身份即将暴露的危险，为了将关乎我党在杭州地下组织存亡的情报传递出去， “老鬼”机智地与日伪及国民党军统特务周旋，制造种种假象迷惑敌人，使得 组织内部陷入混乱，搞不清谁是真正的“老鬼”。
但因条件所限，最后关头“老鬼”不得不以牺牲生命来降低肥原对自己的怀疑，并在临死前与同屋居住的译电员联 手，用一幅画有不同长短小草的图画来代替莫尔斯电码将情报成功传递出去。 审讯越来越白热化，最终，顾晓梦举报了吴志国，后者正生不如死之际，李宁玉又举报了顾晓梦。

原来，顾晓梦和吴志国都是共产党员。 老鬼是顾晓梦，老枪是吴志国。 为了传出情报，二人在无计可施的情况下决定牺牲一人，保全另一人。
最终顾晓梦惨烈地牺牲，吴志国保住性命，顺利地传出了情报。
我欣赏顾晓梦对保护她国家的说词。
她说 ：日本人永远不会明白..老鬼，老枪不是一个人，而是一种精神.

Happy Birthday

23/12-Happy Birthday to my only sister =)
Happy 15th~~~
All d best =)

my current obsession

bareback !! bareback !!! bareback!!!! bareback!!!!! bareback!!!!!!

I want a bareback new year =)
bareback tops,bareback dresses come to me!come to me!!! XD


A jacket .. ;D& I want a pair of jeans like this..this is so rugged..XD

flats..
it is time to get A black/silver or pearl white flats after i had so many funky colour of it =) A pair of mid heels/pumps..want something that is not more than 2.5inches =D

Exam is over...HOLIDAYs on d hse xD

Final exam over..
hope that I can pass =)

Holidays start =D
but there is no any plan yet..

Christmas is near..
but I still have no plan T_T
I guess there is no Christmas present for this year..*sobs*

Me wanna shopping...
there is lists of item that I want to buy..
awwww...but lack of money ><
somebody sponsor pleaseeeeeee...
**suddenly want my mum read ma' blog**

Me wanna party...
wanna budweiser,vodka lime,tequila shots,etc..
but no party kaki here...aikz

Me wanna learn back my violin..
not learn,is practice more n more in this semester break..
violin ROCKS,it is not always classical for me..XDD

Me miss BEACHES...
wanna jet ski,skuba diving,snorkelling...
too bad now is not d season..
any1 want go with me???
I am always available..=P
I want to go phuket!bali!
perhentian also ok larr...redang,langkawi,even pangkor also not bad..
LOL..just anyone want join??

^_^

Thank you guys ♥
I can handle it,no worries...
Although I won't get a very good grade,but at least I think I can pass,that is more than enough already at this moment..
cuz I am sucks in maths >.<

like AQ said : 我说你行你就行！XDD
So,
After days of studies and practices,I am SURE i can do it pretty well ♥
Anyway,thank you my dear friends & help that offered ♥
it do works =)
heart youuuu all.. ♥ ♥ ♥

我很辛苦

压力压力压力压力

我很担心我的数学考试！！！！！
从来没这样压力过
每次读书能读到哭，
我还是头一次
还真不像我
我觉得透不过气，
发生很多不如意的事情
心情超烂的，脾气超差的。
不开心，
避免庸人自扰。。
还要自己对自己说 ：
Life isn't Fair, but Life is still Good; Appreaciate..

或许其他人会觉得这些不很重要
但我的心脏却负荷不了，
很怕自己会支撑不了；
天天跟自己说我是能的，我是最强的我是最坚强地。。
都快觉得我快变成成天自言自语的神经病。

我不要被当，我要在2010JAN读DEGREE =）
加油！
我是能的能的能的
不断地催眠自己！！
SAY YES I WILL
SAY YES I CAN
CAUSE I AM SUPERWOMAN
YES I AM
OH LET ME TELL YOU
I AM A SUPERWOMAN..
I CAN COMPLETE MY FOUNDATION BY 2009 & STAY AT KAMPAR 3yrs MORE.

有意思 xDD

I had read a meaningful article in mandarin in a leng zai's blog =D
So ,I decided post it up here n share with everyone who read my blog..

每個人身邊都有一個不是男朋友的男朋友,不是女朋友的女朋友..
你們可能相愛過，你們也可能喜歡著彼此，但是，為了什麼原因你們沒能在一起？

也許他為了朋友之間的義氣，不能追你。
也許為了顧及家人的意見，你們沒有在一起。
也許為了出國深造，他沒有要你等他。
也許你們相遇太早，還不懂得珍惜對方。
也許你們相遇太晚，你們身邊已經有了另一個人。
也許你回頭太遲，對方已不再等待。
也許你們彼此在捉摸對方的心，而遲遲無法跨出界線。

不過即使你們沒在一起，你們還是保持了朋友的關係。
但是你們心底清楚，對這個人，你比朋友還多了一份關心。

即使不能跟他名正言順的牽著手逛街，你們還是可以做無所不談的朋友。
他有喜歡的人，你口頭上會幫他追，心裏卻不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。
他遇到困難時，你會盡你所能的幫他，不會計較誰又欠了誰。
男女朋友吃醋了，你會安撫他們說你和他只是朋友，
但你心中會有那麼一絲的不確定。

每個人這輩子，心中都有過這麼一個特別的朋友，很矛盾的行為。
一開始你不甘心只做朋友的，但久了，突然發現這樣最好。
你寧願這樣關心他，總好過你們在一起而有天會分手。

你寧願做他的朋友，彼此不會吃醋，才可以真的無所不談。
特別是這樣，你還是知道，他永遠會關心你的。
做不成男女朋友，當他那個特別的朋友，有什麼不好呢？
你心中的這個特別的朋友...?

是誰呢？

很多的感情，都因為一廂情願，最後連朋友都當不成了。
常常覺得惋惜，可惜一些本來很好的友情。
最後卻因為對方的一句喜歡你，如果你沒有反應，
這一段友情似乎也難以維持下去，
這也難怪有些人會因此不肯踏出這一步。
因為這就像是一場賭注，
表白了之後不是成了男女朋友，
要不就連朋友都當不成了。

有些事不是你能預料的，或許對方不在意，
你們還可以是朋友，但卻已經不如從前的好.=)

So, Appreciate =)

A happy thursday night =)

19/11 = HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY to Mr.Destiny Choo ..XD


hope that he like my present.wahahhaa =)
anyway, I enjoyed friends fooling around at westlake yesterday night.

not to mentioned the details.
LOL,cuz am worried whacked by others.xDD
so the content is -P&C-
just
so surprise my dear yling is the most concious on that night..XD

I am better now =D

S.I.C.K
I hate you,I never love you ><
Fall a sick on Sunday..
Maybe is rain cz kampar rain contently and I din bring umbrella go out =.=
what a lazy rabbit ! that is why I fall a sick..
fever,dizzy,feels very cold even I pull on my jacket and switch off the fan ><''
Feel better when I wake up in yesterday morning,just feel cold..
go to class and take my midterm like normal..
still action when met friends outside the lecture hall that I am recovered & no need meds already =.=
but,
After class and lunch.It rain heavily in a sudden with no clue!!!!!
Gosh,Every1 run to the parking lot =.=
so, it means I kena hujan again T_T
After back,I took a warm bath..
but it seems not effective!! I just feel no energy & cold,cold and very cold!!!!!
TOTALLY FREEZE
feels so pity myself that time =.=
Luckilly I still able to send a text to friend to help me to buy medicine.
and
I am now recovered^^

meds always looks creepy !! uek =p

p/s : thank you choo & toitoi =) although d medicine looks creepy, but it save me.LOL

p/p/s : my assignment group member,so sorry that I cannot do my work properly this few days.I will do it better as I promise ^^

friday..

Friday mood = Stuck

I cant get out of bed today,or get you off my mind.
I just cant seem to find a way to leave the love behind.
I aint tripping,I am just missing you.
Every now and then when I am all alone.
I'd be wishing that you would call me on the telephone.
I am such a fool
I cant take it what am I waiting for..
My heart still breaking,I miss you even more.
And I cant fake it,the way I could before.

I "hate" you,but I miss you
I cant stop thinking of you..

A moody friday for no reason..
A sleepless night again...
After watching some videos that others posted up
Maybe I am missing you,James..
Everyday I was like seeing you in Uni..
When I am playing fluff,I think of you ><
Remember those day you kinda forced me to play this application & want me send to you items.
Now,d game is kinda no meaning to play anymore =(
cuz where there is no "fight",there have no fun ='(

R.I.P my friend I guess you are an angel up there now =)

8thNovember

8th November 2009

is my 19th Bday =D
my last teenage year..sobx

so,

I am now officially & legally 19th ♥
Thank you every single wishes that I received =)
Thank you every cards & presents.
I do love it , appreciate it , remember & keep in my heart XD

Thank you birthday cake and pressie from my housemates ^^
♥ 1469 so much

Thank you my dear ♥ friends & d "surprise" too =)
Who is the first to wish is not a big deal la..LOL
as long as 有心.
I love d present so so much btw =D

♥

R.A.N.D.O.M.S.N.E.S.S

Saw this picture from other's blog.
Personally like it very much..XDD
There is one more month to december.
That mean shopping time..XD
Need to save some money for this ..ACCESSORIES, ;)

Jeans,shades,purse


Shoesss..That is d thing that I always not enough no matter is heels,flats,sneakers,wedges.. =_=

Btw,
I'll like to mentioned that
I Had a great friday night..
Luckilly I followed my classmate go out..

@ sincero,Ipoh.

current classmates...
They are super high..LOL
We had tried different kind of alcohol..*cool*
After that I have not much to mention coz I switch to barroom after 2 hours =p

sincero

I called out sn yesterday.
Then after sincero,both of us switch to barroom =P
Halloween Night in barroom was not bad thou..
Only thing is there is Just too crowded.

p/s : thank you everyone =)

^_^

Things that happened,happened
We cannot change it no matter how..
Keep sadness inside your heart..
Let it be our memories..
Let them Live in our heart..
Passed is passed..


So,Let's get to move' on =)
cheers.

p/s :
A big thank you to everyone.
My friends,classmates.
Every single messages that I received
Every single person who accompany me in d hard time.
I do appreaciate it =)

Special thanks to :
Yling : XOXO
Swee nam : Thanks to acc me when those sleepless night.
Andrew : Thank you la,*heart you* I know what is family for ..XD

想念是会呼吸的痛

我们的梦想

你总说　时间还很多
你可以等我
以前我不懂得
未必明天　就有以后
想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛
连沉默也痛
遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛
没看你脸上　张扬过哀伤
那是种多么　寂寞的倔强
你没说　你也会软弱
需要依赖我
我就装不晓得
自由移动　自我地过
想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛
连沉默也痛
遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛
你回来那就好了
能重来那就好了～

Dear James,
I am sorry that I cannot attend your funeral.
I am sorry that I have no guts to see you for the last time.
I am sorry that I am such a coward that I stand outside d hospital but I am not strong enough to go in..
I am sorry..
That is only tears flow like tape water.
I still cannot accept the truth.
I just sembang with you through hp almost an hour before that.
We haven't go Dubai YET,our dream vacation.
You haven't reply me which camera should I buy yet.
You still owe me photos.
Why you dunwan send to me? Now,I din even have a photo of us ='(
We still owe each other a warm hug.
I am sorry complain about you but you are not wrong.
In my mind,you just go somewhere very far away study with jing xing& shy gin.
I will not forget whatever you told/teach me before,
you are my sunshine ..
yes,I will continue my life bright as sunshine.
you always told me that :Cause of negative.. Thus positive exist..
I will remember this =)
I miss the time we crazy about fluff =)
Thanks the time you beside me when I am not happy
Thanks for the memories.
You are my extraordinary friend.
That is too late to tell anything.
I will always miss you until my last breath.

TO : Jing xin
Last respect for you,I couldnt believe I saw you for the last time outside the lecture hall.you will be missed dearly.

TO : Shy gin天使
我美丽的阿盈姐姐, you will be missed dearly..My dear cousin sister.

♥

Rest in peace,my dear friends
I appreciate our friendship & the days we are together